17.5.03
oh dear. cant believe this, im back into my habit of getting emotional all over again. teared when i was singing this song by energy. --duo ai wo yi tian--
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i wrote the letter ystday. still early, i know, but somehow i just felt like writing it. it was pretty long i'd say, compared to my usual ones. and i crapped a lot. had to restrain myself from leading things too far off, it was kinda difficult. yash, i kept my word, i didnt mention anthing abt that type of thing. it was a purely innocent letter written by a purely innocent author. ha.
slept realli early last night...say 9pm? haha. cos i didnt sleep in the afternoon. didnt haf a chance cos i ended up playing with my childhood toys. imagine that. so old already still play with toys. my sis' so ashamed of me. haha. but it was damn fun la kiex...this snack shop thingy i used to love to play with...im reliving my childhood days. am so deprived sometimes. my sis says its ironic that i like to play with those cooking toys, cos i detest cooking in real life. ya, true, its ironic, but cooking toys are damn fun. i am not like other girls who like barbies. *shrugz*
this morning when i woke up, i was giddy again. wtf. i am so going to drop dead one day. and i had so many thoughts and feelings running through my head. was so confused. i cant make a decision. ended up playing the piano and my fingers hurt even more after that day's bowling. so fucked up.
ayumi's trust is quite a nice song.
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16.5.03
just back from guides. so groggy and sleepy now. the sun's heat is taking a toll on my mental and physical health. achieved a lot during guides today. hehe. finally completed the enrolment for every single one of the sec 1s except for the new girl. yippee! great sense of achievement. ;) i was so blur today. was calling out for this girl....was like "rachel, rachel!....eh? where's rachel??" and she was just sitting right in front of me. wth. and she had to suddenly raise her hand...scared me to death man, that girl. *shudders* didnt see flower today. strange. strange. nvm. im going to bathe and go to bed. night ppl...
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*phew*...was feeling so dizzy just now i think i almost collapsed in the toilet. thank goodness i didnt or nobody would even notice and by the time someone does, i'd be so dead. think my dizzy spells are inherited genetically from my mother. *sigh*...she was quite funny....saying that when she was young she used to feel dizzy quite often...and then later on she said, actually now that she's old its still like that. muahaha. *dumbz*....mebbe im anaemic. erbx...scary...and i can just predict wad my mum will start doing - forcing brand's essence down my throat. shux....how i dread it so. maybe i am anaemic. i dont want!!! i cant possibly afford to be stricken with illness at such a tender age...i've got sooo many things to pursue in life. that's one bad thing abt Man; we never live life like there's no tomorrow and tend to take things for granted. nono, im just being oversensitive, i'll be fine. but then again, perhaps its self-denial now. bleahx. if there were no tomorrow, i wouldnt regret anything that i have done, other than not doing well for psle. but i just wish i could be str8 before leaving this world...its such a dammit sin.
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my head's spinning and im feeling so dizzy now...*tired*
screwed up physics...wtf...P1V1=P2V2...argh!! i'll forever remember this formula i think. shit...and wad was most irritating was mrs clara tan...guess she realli doesnt haf any sense at all....purposely make announcements in the midst of our papers. and esp when im wrecking my brains for the answer. could tell that vidhya was realli pissed when she announced..hahaha...quite cute.
ah....quite satisfied today. hahah....hmmz..hafnt splurged and enjoyed so much for quite a long time. >_< but i think i kinda disappointed my parents cos apparently i wont do well for the exams but yet i spent so much money. oh well...
i seriously cant get the two of you outta my mind.
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15.5.03
today is 15th May...my favourite date of the month! on the fifteenth, many memorable things happened...
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waiting for yash's call for the verdict...wow..its 5++ already...and im still waiting...do you realli need one hour to ask? haha...anyway i occupied myself during that one hour by talking to dorothy....hmmz..hafnt talked to her for quite a while, come to think of it...heart to heart talk. haahha...wadever. my eyes hurt but i dont know why. and i feel warm. wth..its always like that when ive got nothing to do....somehow....hafnt done anything for the whole dae yet. hahaahha..i rock man...cant believe this is me sometimes. slack. lazy. i suddenly realise how many sweet ppl there are out there in this world. its realli comforting to know. thanks a bunch. and er, dorothy, mebbe you'd like to thank, on my behalf, the person who cared. i kinda spent quite a lot of time today socializing..hahaha..not exactly socializing but keeping in contact with my frenz. yupyup. i asked terri to sms me to remind me abt the declaration form ystday and she remembered! such a sweet little thing...haha...im not being sarcastic here ya? realli appreciate the fact that she remembered. at least im remembered for one blardee time. ok, i shant let this trigger off a whole series of mood swings. now now...i seriously dont know who matters more. A or B...number 1 or 2...*think think*
[the angel: ay, denise, you seriously think too much. get yourself started on your physics and chem!]
[the devil: urgh..studying just sux...take your time and enjoy! life is short girl....go on fantasizing! while your time away!]
which to believe??? in a dilemma
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14.5.03
blogger's kinda screwed. i cant view the pages. nvm...the exam's are so-called over. and ive finally allowed myself to take a breather by blogging. hurhur. a maths totally sucked. screwed the entire paper up....wth....went out with yash ystday and came back later than i expected...haha...ate 'curly fries'....hahaha...it was total bliss!! and the discounted price made it taste even better. haha...i didnt dare tell anybody where i went when i reached home...my dad just knew that i went out to eat and came back. too embarassing to say....and ever since i pinched my nose it started to leak nonstop....until i went to bed kiex....was so tired of blowing my nose....and was on the verge of suffocation cos my nose was blocked. urgh...thank goodness im okay now...watched tv the whole of ystday night...it was so enjoyable!!! hahaha...hafnt got to watch tv in peace for the past few days...i did watch la...but studied while watching...so how fun can it get right? but ystday i watched the most nonsensical shows that i wouldnt permit myself to watch usually and just lay down on the bed and rot. whee~ :P had a 'special' dream last night....it wasnt erotic so dont think otherwise..haha...it's just one of those dark secret stuff again....just that so many ppl were present in the dream this time....was at the bowling alley....i think too much again. *sigh*
special reminder: sign declaration form, bring two plastic bags and that retarded packet of tissue paper tmr. :D [why do i haf this feeling that i myself will forget all abt it? =| ]
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